She cares, but who knows?

i felt a litttle regret for a while
whenever i saw my old picture w/ my lovely long fringe

most ppl will ask me, "Why do you cut it?"
i would reply,
" I dun wanna act 'sexy' with long fringe"
" I dun wanna look tt old w/ long fringe"
" I admit i dun have tt good feature to match my long fringe"
" I prefer the look tt i had when i gained freedom in 2006 "
"Short fringe looks bold ! "

or the more tradition way of replying
" New school semester, new hairstyle"

let's see wat happen to my fringe
from present back to then in april 2006



it's been sometimes since i cut my own hair
i quit going to salon ever since the auntie dun cut my hair to the style i want
designer cut their own hair yep

plus i dun think long fringe suits me
it kinda bother me with the current problem
or past problem tt i encouter
din know how to let go or dun care at all
i tried to solved them

however
i realised tt not all problem are to be solved
some are meant to be dissolved
meaning - dun rack it up and it will fade away
some problem, major problem
you gonna work it out
let it become a small problem
& let it dissolved by itself

tt's why i denied myself to others sometimes
do i need to proclaim to the whole world wat i've done?
i have my right not to say cos it's not the right time
adding on i dunno if you gonna tell everyone

i knew wat went wrong
tt's why i stop contacting the person
tt's why i choose to hang out with different friends
get on with a new life
dun give a damn on wat had happen
cos it's OVER !
DONE & OVER

admitting tt i like one of them
but come on, he's so much younger than me
plus i dun go for younger guys now
do you think tt i'll prey on him?
NO WAY!!!!!
it'll only bring me more harm than good when we break up
i dun have time for all these worthless nonsense
i'm clear of wat i'm doing and wat i want in life
present and future

if not, i wun be quittin Lasalle
a place whr i can use my full potential in my career now
and went to NYP
to get a diploma and pursue my dream as a pilot


the usual say
PARALLEL LINE NEVER MEETS
we lead a totally different lifestyle
i use to dislike smokers
i accept them as my friends now - i can be flexible & change
i dun hang out w/ ppl who leads a totally different life as me
cos thr's nth to talk about
but i let them into my world
i allow myself going into their world
main reason - to know waz outside my world
to know more lovely friends - to understand people

however
my so call understand ppl mislead some ppl
thinking i'm a big flirt
alrite, let it be
since u dun wanna understand me more
saying i lead you to thw judgement
sometimes
humans gotta use the brain more than using the heart

at times
i was forced to use my brain instead of my heart
it really hurts sometimes
doing thing rationally to aviod so much things



we were meant to be tgt
for some reasons - i cut off our contact
you went into my world at the end of my semester
thinking tt we can be tgt as friends again
you'll never know how much you meant to me
but
WE CAN NEVER BE TOGETHER
never never never
we can be tgt if you dun mind the wound to be really pain @ e end
i cant take the pain @ e end
so i cant be with you now nor in future

our place tt we're living in is round
true enough to say tt
so why friends cant be friends?
why shld friends be tgt as couple?
i dun believe in it
saying i've lose faith in getting into a relationship
i can only say i dun have the time for a fake relationship
a r/s tt he lies, he's tired, he keep complaining tt i've no time for him

if it's a true love
to accept for who i am

- a person who doesnt have time for everything
- a person who almost gave up living w/ friends
- a person who dun care bout waz happening around her
- a person who is so sensitive to forgive almost everything
- a person who truely love him to death
- a person who ends everything out of the blue
without warning when i cant accept his mistake
to accept him for who he is
i'll probably be preparing for my marriage :)

before i meet this type of guy
i guess i'll be enjoying life
my last 2 mths of my teenage life :)
isnt it wonderful to enjoy life
getting wat you want w/out ppl complaining
but with ppl supporting you and giving good advices to you ?