BANG BANG

contact len trial

friends of mine know i dun wear contact lens
but i gave it a try tdy

representing imodel for the trial
it was my FIRST TIME wearing contact lens
trembling hands, watery lens

i had a difficult time of getting the lens on my pupils
ok i admit my eyes are REALLY SMALL
-.-

once i got them into my eyes
i can say tt i see no different of those 13 lens
but the brown len no.5 left a deep impression for me
classy tt suit my complexion
i was deeply attracted to the lens

a long session tdy frm 9.30 pm to 1 pm
headed to vivo w/ AJ for Jap band
rained heavily nth much to talk bout at the venue

no secrets to baby fling

secrets are not to be revealed

it's meant to be thrown away
* above sentence is just a joke *

however
sometimes, it's better to have no secrets with each other

somebody enlighten me
secrets are sometimes, to be shared
it'll act as ur extra info for others to know you
or rather for your love ones to know

since secrets are told
every sentence we said
had became naked for the other
nth to be hiden
just pure sentences which send the messages directly and clearly across

it seems tt everything turns out to be real now
nth's too fantasy anymore

feelings
it is meant to be there, no hiding, no guessing

someone let me realised that sex isnt anything serious
nor something to be hidden
waz the definition of a virgin?
if the membrance is still there....

i admit tt %^&*^#$%^
my membrance IS STILL THERE
meaning I AM STILL A VIRGIN !
does tt means tt i lied to you
saying tt i'm a virgin?

pls
if you can give oral sex
i guess i'm way too much for wat i've done

so why am i still asking stupid question
considering the fact tt i've know the answer
you've hinted me so clearly, even gave me an answer
and yet i'm still asking
isnt tt stupid?

"to adjust my feeling towards you and believe that you are still e someone who i knew and familiar for 8.5 years"

since we know wat each other had done in these 2 years
waz thr to hide?
indeed, waz thr to hide?

i''ve change frm wat i used to be in sec sch
whr i was still a simple gal
to someone who have so much secrets to hide
changing to someone who's wierd
someone who goes for wat she wants
someone who is deeply in love with
contemp art, contemp dance
fine art photography

guess, nth's big deal for me
dreams are just dreams'
i've just gotta accept the moment i'm living in

let's not go back to square one
but move on
no one's going back to 4 years ago
but we are just continueing the feelings frm tt year
fact that we all are moving
no one is going back anymore
we're bringing our memories tgt to move on
tt's it :)

sound easy
yes it is
i've always live free and easy
tt's me after sec sch
tt's me after the last time i saw him

i dont wanna get into unnecessary guessing anymore
it's tiring

therefore
a fling is only a fling
he's STILL A FRIEND
he will never able to step ahead to be my boyfriend
he BEHAVE LIKE A BOYFRIEND
DO THINGS THAT A BOYFRIEND DO
& he's yet a boyfriend
as simple as that
if i still dont get the definition
den i'll quit being his fling for good
no pressure
once thr's pressure, QUIT !

baby
you'll always be my FRIEND
although you are now my fling

still a friend for me to share my troubles
someone to depend on after break up
isnt it tt better?

my baby

baby gave me 6 invisible kisses ytd .....
additional dunno how many kisses at nite

tin finally got her pictures ALL uploaded in FB
hurray! time to return wat shld be return

shld i take baby's word for real?

i mean i'm not doubting him
but i just dun wanna spend my energy on fake promises
& fake sentences

well

he told me he meant it for every sentence he said to me :)
tt's pretty sweet

u see readers
added some sweetness recently for
8.5 years of friendship have somehow
5 years of waiting to be tgt
2.5 years not no contact

it's kinda coincident
it's like the end of education
den we're meant to be tgt
does education hindle our sparkling life?

i guess it's concerntrating on edu b4 moving on to other things

so tired now
gotta go lala land to meet up w/ him
nites ppl

recovering memories

human souls drifted away after sometimes
people left
things are gone
will memories dissapear as well?

it will
however, it will come back
the cells, aiding w/ familiar songs

seducing the future

abandon the past
tt's wat ppl tend to do
when things happen

however
dreams and passion are always there
forever visible
like a tattoo
they'll never go away

an evening w/ lyn to be escaped frm the world of island





restroom is a place for me to take pictures.....
i love toliets >.<

changed fb webby

facebook changed it's webby this midnite

take a peep :)

a chore when things got changed overnite
boxes are all at a tab
information another tab
photos another tab

it makes the whole composition neater
less than 3 clicks to the page we want
a rule for web designing

tin loves the new facebook webby :)

hurt

the truth is everybody is going to hurt you
you just have to decide who is worth the pain

secrets

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK
LOVELY PEOPLE
a post tt's dedicated to him
my baby :)

FOR PEOPLE WHO DUN LIKE IT TO BE SWEET
THERE'S BITTERNESS SOMEWHERE
SEARCH FOR IT :)

FOR PEOPLE WHO LIKE EXTRA SWEET
INDULGE YOURSELF TILL THE END :)

"we've no secrets"
tt's wat he told me :)

thinking of tt
yep we dun have any secrets
i'll tell him everything bout me
w/ no fear :)

it was the 3rd kiss he gave
since we were tgt
one day?

hmmm...... frm the start

"i love you"
the sentence i texted him 3 years go
"tell her that i love her too"
he replied 3 years ago

does the love for the both of us still there?
is it hiding? love, where are you :) ? or...
waiting for me to complete my tertiary education
before anything serious about love starts?

misses me
someone actually misses me and smsed me
"i miss you"

it was just in time after the jap film entitled "the milk woman" ended
for the last part of the film
i tot of him :) sweet
he knew i'm at the film
gave me few mins of silent
and consequently texted me when he missed me too much

met up w/ lyn for st james
"going home?" he asked
nope going to gals talk
bout wat guys can do to gals during sex

ermmm
yep he did ask if i'm a virgin, lotsa times
wat if i am & wat if i'm not?

wat if he is & wat if he's not?
will sex bring us closer than we were in sec sch? :)

i always believe tt love is innocent
but becos of him
i realised that love can be innocent, pure and naughty
it's not wat we do
but it's wat we feel

if we're comfortable w/ each other
why not?

sometimes, gals are shy
BUT only to guys they really love
or rather, like :)
thr he is telling me not to be shy
wat a cute guy :)

some ppl says it wont last long
after he gets into you
he'll move away
but to me
he's just someone whom i treated him as friend
i might never let him get deep into me thou...

is it true tt guys cant live well w/out sexual relationship?
probably they just need to satisfy their needs
it's normal tt they want it
it's not normal tt they do it

some may feels tt it's too personal to talk about
some says it's alrite
tin says
it's perfectly alrite and normal
it's only the way you talk about it
no one get harms
everyone shld feel comfortable to share thing tt shld be shared
but not too detailed :) hehe

it was scary on e 1st day
cos i hate e feeling of wat i felt in my 1st r/s
it sucks
but the fact tt he's someone i knew for 8 years & 8 mths
3102.5 days approximately?
tt's a digit
known for more than 3000 days
& are tgt now
isn't it wonderful?

was thinking if he's the guy i'll be living w/
on my way home on e expressway
i felt easy
it seems to be true enough to get married to him

:)

well, if u manage to read this

tin just wan to let you know tt
thr's still little love left for us :)
thou it's been 4 years

p.s. promises are meant to be broken?

if yes, tin shall break 5 promises tt he made to me
if not, we shall trust our words and do it :)

1. Lunch for prata @ thomson
2. Lychee freeze at my house
3. Get into YFC (Youth Flying Club) upon my graduation frm NYP
4. Semi formal Dating
5. Overnite stay outside

another 2 more weeks
he'll be released frm the island
ermm, he's in bmt now :)

swwet enough to say tt i dun feel tt i'm waiting
but more of missing him
which turns out to be my new hobby lately :)

he's asleep now
& i've gotta slp too
nitey ppl

tin ablance

type something regarding balancing in e afternoon

but due to some error
the post cant be posted :(

however
guess God have helped me w/ it

main reason of why i cant do this and tt is becos
i din know how to balance my life
w/ someone to miss now
dancing and sketching are standing aside
which they're important part of my life

whenever i watch film
i think of him
whenever i sketch
i think of him
whenever i dance
i saw him in e mirror -.-
* shy *

was in e cab home frm st james
a song was played
tt reminds me of the past in 2004
e last time we met each other
e last time we said goodbye
* bitterly sweet*

nobody knows tt we'll be tgt
perharps in a complicated relationship
cos none of us wanna get hurt

he's like someone who'll be thr for me whenever i feel sad
indeed it's true
he was the 1st person i called after my 1st breakup in 06
thou one promise was broken
4 more promises were made this year

i dunno if i shld treat these promises seriously
but i guess
i shld treat them well
not too serious, not too lightly

4:33

i cant be bothered by it
it's like a waste of energy
not a waste of time

helicopter is flying pass above my house
plane zoom passed few hrs ago

it was tight
yet it loosen

feeling are real

but i'll prefer it to last longer
not too exciting

sounds like wat you're thinking
it's not
yet to start
but it seems to be ending soon
..... ...... ......
waz e next min
i dunno & dun wish to know
cos now'll lead to the next min :)

1.30pm - new fling

new fling @ 1.30pm
probably we just need someone near

perharps we just need a hug
maybe we are the onlyone for each other

dance seems so far frm me
no, it have yet to start
flying seems impossible frm now
no, i have yet to get it

it may ends
it may last
does it matter to me?

i think so
i dun think so

will it turn out to be a thing?

i have no idea
maybe, mabe not

it's really madness
fortunately i have time for these nonsense now
or decision rather than nonsense

Last Paper + Last BF

i've done my last exam paper
network & server security

thou it's a elective module
but i love it so much
cos all i need to know about are vey logical
th'r isnt too much of memorising
but rather understanding
din study much ytd

one secret of tin
her crush texted her n4 she went for her exam
a total of 10 hours of texting and replying her crush

oops, i shld say he's my ex-crush
two and a half years
we din really keep in contact thou we're in the same school
probably he dun have my new no.and i din really send sms to ppl of my no number

i din have tt strong feeling left for him
after two and a half yearsbut strangely
i tot of him b4 my 1st paper
the fact tt i will think of my past b4 sleeping b4 my1st paper
he was thr in my mind ouf of sudden

kinda happy and excited
is like wat i felt in 2004
tt's like 4 yrs ago thing

rmbed he asked waz our relationship in msn in 2003i told him just friends
he asked again in 2003
my reply is still the same
this time, he asked again of waz our relationship
i wanted to say just friends
but i cant say it out
probably it's time to be tgt?
perharps fling only?

i mean i dun wan anyone to get hurt
since i like him so much so tt i actually waited for him for a year
knowing it's impossible

anw
i've not into any relationship for this sem
cos i'm tired of those lies and fake lovebut here he is
God gave him to me 1 day b4 my final papershld i be tgt w/ him
or shld i not

putting my bf critiria aside
talk abou feeling
i guess he's the one i may spend my life
fullstop

FB adorability

received messages frm these 2 cute ppl


as if i dun wanna meet up w/ you -.-

i give u my no. so tt u can call/text me :)

somehow and somewhere
thr'll still be innocent and polite ppl
i love these online friends
cos they're true in watever they ask and say
ons of love for you ppl !


it's abit late but birthday alarm alarm us of Nation's 43rd Birthday :)
cool yea?

Rainy Days - Naive / Brillant

i always loves rainy days

as a kid
i tot rainy days were time for play

as a teenager
i think rainy days are for shopping

as a young adult
i always think that rainy days are for

photography, gals talk, afternoon tea, ballet, lychee freeze
window shopping

be it wonderful or desperate

i always think that rainy days are great

a weather tt make most ppl sleep

falling asleep for most ppl arent a easy thing
gals will not feel humid after hrs of shopping frm one mall to another on the street

rainy days often reminds me of self-being

human shows they really care only w/ the proof during this days

whether they care to share an unbrella

whether they care to ask, "where are you going?"

these ppl often warms my heart
at the traffic lights, under a building shelter

rainy days are a great day for missing the love ones

for ppl who deserve to be missed :)

rainy day belongs to everyone

however

mostly everyone hate it

rainy day belongs to tin

she'll thank God for a wonderful weather

a weather tt stays w/ us for days
a weather tt stays w/ us for hrs

a weather tt stays w/ us for minutes

scientific terms aside

for the time being

i love to see my school pond almost flooded w/ rain water

wondering when will the pond be over flow w/ water
i guess tt's a impossible scenerio

rain drops kisses the face gently
fall on the cheek & the lips
finally reaching the ground and say
"thanks for the surface so i din gotta drop directly onto the ground
which is fiercely dumped"

tinalways fell in love w/ rainy days

fireworks after EXAM Revision

2nd day of jap film fest
was late for revision b4 film, an hr for revision thou

dinner w/ my family @ marina squares mac

yep my parent love mac once in a while
"parent who bring the kid to mac for happy meal"
a decade ago :)

daddy said thr'll be firework

i said i'll join them for dinner and firework if the film ends early

it was a fine and wonderful sparks
w/ korea drama's music played
nope, we din get the tix
but we lingered around the border of the sea

candies for ur eyes











p.s. extra info
tin's new hairstyle no.1 (detailed )





i need a hairspray tt holds my hair
thou i always resist spraying
but i've hook to a new habit lately
moisturising my head of hair everynite i sleep + going out

tin's new hairstyle no.2

reminds me of the days when my mum love to tie for me when i was a kid

avoiding acting cute but somehow

i can't admit tt im cute w/out acting =)

if you dislike wat i say above due to YOUR personal reason

JOLLY WELL NEITHER READ THEM NOR SEE THEM

else, let it be cos my bloggy is for my own personal fun

tt i'm willing to share w/ old friends & new friends
fling and ex-es
stranger like you
good and bad

who say it's a sin for not uploading images w/ loads of describtion?
tin says it's a matter of time
can't be patient, let it be :)
no harm to anyone thou

2:38am

ended my nite w/ jap film
"Sansho the Baniliff"

1954, a tragic film
but mother and son got reunited
father and daughter were gones
rather a touching film for tin
watch it w/ Hajar

miss cupcakes
was lazy to walk to the bakery near my hse
train station's cupcakes were sold
early....
hungry.....

new vege biscuit @ home
yummy

tired but i'm here uploading images to FB
delete & print my fav images
just tt i'm shifting virtual's HD
HD - Hard Disk

take a peep





not to boost my site

but i dun wan any images get lost in my disk :)

meanwhile

tin've stop taking picture

cos she din bring her baby out

to avoid too much images store

keeping on

study, tv, cupcakes

tt made my thursday

2nd paper starts frm 4pm tmr

thank God it's a afternoon

living in eternity

jap brown dress

jasmine rose tea

cupcakes

weekends are arriving

again, it's jp film fest

falling in luv w/ jp culture

brands, material

white, tea, pocky & pretz

MUJI

shopping spree after exam

MUJI, Paragon, Retail Therapy

Trendy zone, Convet

Forever 21, Miss Selfridge

Hermes, Chanel, Shiseido

a visit to Butter Factory

Singapore Dance theatre

Mosi, Coffee Bean, Earshot

Kallang Roar & Lotus
catch them soon in Cathay

get me out out reality

bring me into fairy tale

lust!

moveeeee on

1 exam's over !

been waiting for this day

question look @ me & i stared @ them :)

scrabble is a word to describe how i did my exam tdy

i write all i can rmb plus some general knowledge

tmr's another for study -.-

friday's last exam for the week

followed by a film screening @ National Museum

entitiled "Sansho the Bailiff"

i'm going to get my own time back soon

wander around in the street again
finding my path to the days tt's arriving

but sad to say

FYP is in 2 weeks time -.-

i wonder wat project i'll be doing

better still

gimme a project tt's INDIVIDUAL

not group

if it's a group project

gimme a bunch of GOOD & ALIKE ppl

else, i'll quit and do individual work :)

capricorn kids are independent

they're decisive and serious at times

so dun try to be funny w/ me

i may hate you and ignore you for no reasons :)

afterall

i'm a girl

comfy tuesday

it's my last day of preparation for Broadband & WAN exam

suppose to meet uncle sean @ shaw hse in town

but dun feel like going any where tdy

next time yep :)

dad brought me to the neighbourhood for afternoon tea

rojak & teh tarik (hot)

grocery shopping @ NTUC super market

i tot SG sales were alr over but taka are having sales

supermarkets are having sales as well

dad got me a bag of oreo waffle and famous amos cookies

my favourite!

he always know wat i want during exam revision break

am blessed to have a loving daddy :D

THANKS DAD
SMILE ~

did my revision ytd, seriously

& tdy, i dun feel like revise again -.-

but exam is like less than 18 hrs?

i mean,

whenever i feel tt i'm well prepared

i'll not go too much into studying

relax and rest is the key performace b4 BIG exam :)

small eyes

it's good to have small eyes

cos everyone will ask
"are you wearing contact lens"

means ur pupils are big
which kinda make the eyes big :)

proofs below

enjoy!

amazing isn't it?

so ppl w/ small eyes
PLEASE DO NOT GO FOR PLASTIC SURG
you're lovely!

p.s. i cant wait to see my new portfolio images >.<

exam F & B

in love w/ cupcakes lately & Belgian Chocolate
i'm getting strange
behaving strangely
talks strangely

cupcakes seems to be my supper for these 2 days
i'm not afraid of being fat

but am afraid of not getting fat
i was 59kg once
now, i'm 57kg
considering the fact tt i've been eating more than usual

healthy & unhealthy food
i take them all

but only edible food to be consumed :)

tin loves cupcakes

peace

no peace tdy

wat a sad case

escape frm the stupid location and landed myself in town

i landed at fort canning park -.-

wat the hell

i just wanna get a place to study

is tt so difficult?

i cant study @ home becos of her

cant she stop quarreling w/ me over some small and minor stupid thing?

she've attitude problem
no wonder my dad hates her sometimes

& my dad prefer to talk to me when he has his problem

if dad's gonna go away

i'll shift out and live by myself

i do not wanna live w/ her
stupid irritating woman

who do not have love

$#%^&*(#$%^&*()

it's hot and i was in black sweater

w/ a cup of cold ice tea lemonade

back to town in orchard taka in coffee bean & tea leaf

it's getting cold w/ a large belgain chocolate

i ordered a hot takeaway tt day w/out noticing

as i wanted a ice blend

i shld have ordered a hot but i ended up ordering ice blend -.-

life's getting upside-down for me

out frm the ladies and suppose to pass by tiffany & co.

yet, i went down on the escalator to the 1st level -.-

fortunately, i managed to study for the chapters for wed exam :)

thank God!

irregular meals

unhealthy meals
i hate monday !

:(

i hate today

perharps, i dun have the appetite to eat

waz wrong?

arghhhhhh

facebook

ppl sending me messages

ppl commented on my picture

surprises or consolation?

do they know how my day was today?

i've probably gotta tell them :)

derrick knows

texted him this afternoon when i was in a super bad mood

thanks derrick for being thr for a short while

you've, somehow, brighten my day :)

tin just wan some peace for exam revision

it says, "i love you"

i could hear exam saying hi to me frm far

2 streets away, across 2 traffic lights and 2 underground tunnel

on & off during the weekdays

totally off on sat

sunday is a day to get everythings settled

a day for everything @ anytime

expressway is empty

traffic police are off duty

speeding is allow to the max of 160km/hr

no accident will be met

F1 racing? perharps.......

diamonds frm tiffany
love from 1837

will love last forever?
tin reply,
"love will last forever, definitely"
it always somewhere,
perhaprs everywhere

blurry tin

once again, i forgot to bring my cellphone out -.-

anw, it's a very peaceful day & nite out
cos no one finds me

neither do i receive any text message nor calls

but i feel tt something was missing, but

i lived my saturday well :)

short film @ arts house lasted for 3 hours

i was late, watched the film @ 1pm while the film started @ 12 noon -.-

there're several repeats films

so i stayed in the screening room for 3 hours

next wanted to catch a performance by post ego dance co @ esplanade

entitled "Yellow Monkey"

but student price tix are sold out :(

wat a waste

the bad thing on earth is to got stuck in a location where thr's no food tt suits my buds

dunno whether to go to the left or to the right
ended up walking straight to the bustop & took a bus to Novena

for MOS burger & Korea shopping @ square 2

i love paper bag & tot of keeping this too :)

the adorable kid who walked to me when i was taking picture of the papers
he have lovely eyes and he smiled to me when i look @ him

CUTE!


din notice tt i was eyed by this guy, a stranger, when i was taking picture facing the couter
he sat once table beside me on the right but we din talk :)

i believe when a person sees a moon which is the size bigger than the original size we see nomally, & it's in bright yellow color, we are well blessed :)

i still rmb i felt a sense of peaceful and satisfaction whenever i saw the moon while i was on my way to school in sec sch days, i always tot of him, he was in my heart and we saw each other every morning. tt morning, approximately 6.50 am, i saw tt moon, bright, huge and round. it was smiling @ me, telling me tt i'm a blessed child & reminded me to cherish every moment in my days..... once again, i saw the moon tonight :)

ended my late evening w/ a cup of lychee bubble tea

i fell in love w/ lychee ever since i tried lychee freeze @ maid's cafe @ CHIMJES

my ex

for the 1st time, i smelled like my ex

i left 1 module to clear for next sem - comm skills
yr 3 module.......
equivalent to, I MAY BE IN THE SAME CLS AS MY EX, again
hopefully yep :) den we can be ......
not couple
but clsmate again & same grp
so pray for me tt we're in e same cls next sem for comm skills :)

be alone

the idea of having idealistic life

is to be vain

not totally

but partially

donation for the poor is a must

becos' we care

giving is part of humanilty

receiving is part of humbility

escaping from a reality world

arriving to a fairytale destination

in despair, we find love

in love, we find trust

dance like no one's looking

pointe on toes make one grow

Studio Shoot @ IMODEL

drag myself up for the 1 pm studio shoot this afternoon

i had a nice sleep and a good sleep

perharps i was too tired the nite before

passed by maid's cafe for a lychee freeze when barry invited me to be his drinking partner

i dun mind as long as he dun do anything wrong to me :)
i'm alone and he's alone too

the drink chat lasted for 15 min? & i went home

p.s. lychee freeze is a non-alcholic drink & it's sweet

the studio shoot lasted for 3 hours at least

was kinda tried but i'm glad tt it's a indoor photo shoot

guess i'm moving myself into IMODEL frm now on

snapshot in e makeup room but din get to snap the bridal :(



ppl asked if i'm wearing contact lens

nope i don't & i DUN KNOW HOW TO WEAR contact lens :)

werid yep

gals love to make their eyes big by wearing contact lens

but i din even try once .....

can say tt i'm lazy la

plus, i wore my attire for the studio shoot tdy w/out bringing any outfit -.-

cos thr're lots to choose frm in their changing room :)



anw, i dun really like my makeup but i do love my hairstyle
thanks to carol :D

it's always a must to remove makeup after photoshoots & outings

in love w/ MUJI lately

tin got her makeup removal and toning water frm MUJI @ Paragon

ppl says white is pure, i strongly agree, addin on

tin says white is simple :)

a day @ SDT

handed in the form & took some pic









* pardon for those movement cos i din really warm up *

tin just wanna dance ballet

wednesday late morning

emailing to mimi while i was half awake
plane is flying above my house
loud ...........



a piece of clothing made up my night

mess in bed w/ roses mist



out for a walk
getting out of bed is not a chore @ 11.30am

day out w/ mimi

mischevious tin brought mimi to the seats @ the platform for NDP
thou thr're foreign workers doing their own stuff
but we are thr taking pictures like no one else's business >.<

we just wanna have fun :)