Lost Foundation

Some days, we just cant meet.

Time allowed us some space to see each other at some other places, but someone just doesnt wan it, what else can i do?

It's been the how many time i rejected him .......

Probably, I shouldnt have gave in as early as the 2nd day. At least holding on till the present might be good for us. BUT, it's too late now - unless we return to BOX 1 again and be sincere and innocent to one another.

It's hurts sometimes, I find it difficult to move on, I'm stuck, I'm fragile - Like an broken ankle where dance is impossible in the lovely studio.

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Some of his words reminds me - DON'T YOU DARE TO FORGET THAT YOU ARE A DANCER.

That day, he was so serious talking bout "WHAT IS DANCE" when I just wanna chat bout different type of dance, with and without mirror.

From his sentence, I saw myself when I was 17, the fellow who was once so serious in dance, where mirror is the correction for mistakes.

When I was 17, I tot mirror was super duple important for a Comtemporary Dancer until 21, I realised that with or without mirror, the most important for a Comtemporary Dancer is FEELING & ENERGY.

Since he was so fierce bout the conversation, I asked him what is his definition of dance. He told me PERFECTION. Somehow I agree (but that doesnt mean he have to talk in a arrogant way!).

I cant share with him my opinion since he was so strong about his definition. This had alr shown that he doesnt wanna listen, thr's no point sharing at the end of the day.

I told him to treat that I din ask before bout places to practise dance. It was a bad conservation with him as a friend that late morning. Sucks!

Sometimes, I just prefer we treat each other as dancer rather than fling. At least I can concentrate on what I always love to do, instead of thinking this and that which I'm sick and tired of it (but I have no idea why I am still thinking bout it now and then)

Fifth December this year, an date to rmb :)