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sorry ppl, i keep missing my past guys tdy & would like to express my feeling out :)

anw, i finally did my revision for CT, haha, so super happy and satisfied.
however, after the revision, i'm hungry and also, it reminds me of my ex.

- i din know wat was happening -

WHEN WE WERE TOGERTHER *sweet*
the day when we walked out of school
the 1st time my hand was held in my black jacket
the days we spent tgt b4 CT and exam (our 1st test & exam in NYP)
the days we studies tgt and nearly quarrel for small matter
the nite tt we spent in my hse, preparing for our 1st CT
the morning when i woke up and saw him sleeping on my sofa (not bed pls)
the way he asked for a patch up
the way he realised his mistake and try to make up
the way he joke with me knowing tt he made me angry
the way he keep quiet knowing he said the wrong sentene

WHEN WE WERE SEPERATED
the way he said, "let me know when u have a new bf"
the way he said, "tt's our promise, must tell me when u have a new bf ok?"
the way he sat beside me during elective class and talk non-stop in class

the day called me to revise our last exam together
the day he was so worry for his exam and needed help
the nite he came to my house at midnite
the day i help him and brought all exam modules book for him
the day when he told me wat happen to him and his current gf
the day when he treated me ice-milo during revisions

the way he massge my shoulder when i was pratising for my lab test
the time when he was thr for me after going thru a terrible seperation
the day he hold me gently while i cried over a unworthy guy
the moment he defend me and scolded the unworthy guy

- cos it was my 1st time losing him -

i knew and he knew, tt it'll be our last time studying together
cos we'll be in different specialization.
we can be in the same class for elective
but we're in different study path now
so thr's NO WAY WE CAN BE IN THE SAME ELECTIVE CLASS

- i felt calm but sad, what a waste -

anw, i really appreciated the days we were tgt, be it as friends or as lover.
i admit i like him as friend b4 we were tgt
but i found out tt he's not the type of guy i assume,
kinda dissapointed
but i realised how difficult it was to really love someone
loving isnt easy sometimes,
but loving him was easy at times :)
a simple move and a simple sentence

we can feel the love for each other
a simplicity of love, it was sinless, it was guilt free............

- he asked for a patch, one day be the 1st exam, i agreed -

i can even understand him and accept for who he is
it was difficult cos it was my VERY 1ST TIME
to understand the one i love and accept his mistake tt he made
at least, he's responsible for his actions and words

- he's leo -

seperation was a good way for us to continue our love for each other
it was a silent love after all
but we knew it, he felt better tt way
i dunno cos it was my 1st time seperating frm the one I LIKE
till after e 1st seperation, i realised........

- he shall be rememberd -

he appeared in my dream one nite
we were walking tgt to no-where
i held his arm and he brought me closer to him
i woke up, realising it was a sweet dream

- sometimes, it'll better to be loved, as a close friend -

Wilson, you'll be remembered
we'll still be friends :)