SG Flyer by Night

Quick planned trip by mummy, board the SG Flyer again at nite. Still rmb the 1st time i board it was last year during Singapore Bienalle. Am impressed with the scenery once again, as well as the half an hour ride.

The breath taking scenery from the capsule of the flyer <3

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Lovely highway for driving - to no where
Is the definition of enjoying life - getting to nowhere but enjoying the journey :)

True happiness is very difficult to obtain, find, hunt, rob, grab. It only arrives when one have been ready in life to enjoy :)

3rd Week of November Two O O Nine

Had a terrible start off week - high fever which lasted for 2 days, strong medicines which lead to vomiting on the entire tuesday - felt so a living dead doll, lack of nutrients, wanted to go to hospital for drips but mum dun allow, got scolded by her for not taking my medicine(s) on time.

Thanks to Grace who visited me on tuesday evening when i visited my doctor. God bless her :)

Anw, I'm better now :) had orange juice from mac in the morning, honey melon juice in the afternoon and blueberry juice at nite. I guess these drinks are much better than plain water - i get bloated while drinking too much plain water, fruit juice are more useful for someone like me, who need to get my nutrients back into my body.

Imagine, vomiting from the moment you wake up at 7am till 7pm ................. !_!

NOTICE
Casual poet was closed on this wednesday 18NOV2009.
I've got my soul and heart back, successfully forget bout him.

p.s. perharps, felling sick heavily is a cure for concentrating on oneself well-being rather than other stuffs :)

She's Back

Anesthetic seems to be my aching right back. I did an self injection in school till late nite by doing turns and arch !_!

It's feel so easy to forget bout missing him and live on :)

Simple thing which i always did, i'm doing it since tuesday.

Anw, right back is aching like hell, dance was cancel last min ytd nite, did self practise till as late as 10pm, whole body down by this morning.............

I guess, my heart and soul is back with me again <3

Still missing him

weekends was simple :)

spend my sat morning in my ex-crush/fling house, suppose to stay till late afternoon bout 4pm but end up going off at bout noon to 72-13 for zero-expo.

went for prata opposite the mosque and headed to my friend's shop at haji lane.

Feeling was so different that nite as i walk along the street back to my 2nd house.

Sometimes, I wanna get rid of him from my mind, but the things we did, the words we spoke to each other keep flashing around.

Photo editing was a cure for a moment, I wish thr's a much better medicine for my current cure.

2 mths, since we got close to each other.
How long will this last?
I know it'll end sooner or later.
I want to be with him, but i dun have the feeling towards him now.
I guess, he doesnt have the feeliing for me as well.....

Perharps, someone gotta be strong and leave everything to God, again :)

Needle and Threads

Needle and thread, it hurts when it goes thru the wrong place. Applies to relationship. My crush and I was talking bout it on a Thursday morning.

But why, i'm felt scare of talking to him, or shy to share with him?

Perharps, something lack - FEELING.

He told me feeling can be develop, can it? I doubt so at first .....

He was online, status is available - I have the same msn status as him, but i choose to be reserved. Waiting for him to say "Hi" or "Yo" to me. Sometimes, I guess I shld take the iniative to talk to him, I did, but it seems like the conversation goes wrong way .........

Therefore, I choose to remain quiet and let him start the conversation.

He told me "I'll miss the owner" when i told him i sell him my bed.
I asked him "why", he replied "Dunno"
I told him "ek someone is shy", he sent an icon " :) "

I felt like I'm taking things for granted .........
Can someone gimme time to allow me how to appreciate chances and moments? PLEASE :)

He wouldnt tell me he misses me, like he use to mentioned...
I would tell him i misses him, like the way he told me...

Halloween 2009

Halloween sucks! St James suck! No mama shop, I nearly dehydrated from dancing, slept at Ah Wok for ten min. Not much pictures taken - doesnt have the mood this year , sian.

Dance floor was too pack to dance, everything was like a packed party.....

Hang out

Dislike going to Bugis recently - Personal Reason.

Felt an inner peace when I'm going back to my 2nd house - no one knows about it - near bugis, perharps, away from the area.

Walking to Lasalle from my 2nd house sucks ...... the street , i never know when i'll bump into him, like i bump into him in school.

Sour in my heart, i hate this! Live one day at a time, the best antidote for a sour heart :)




* The place which is so familiar - used to be a place whr I grew up *

Lost Foundation

Some days, we just cant meet.

Time allowed us some space to see each other at some other places, but someone just doesnt wan it, what else can i do?

It's been the how many time i rejected him .......

Probably, I shouldnt have gave in as early as the 2nd day. At least holding on till the present might be good for us. BUT, it's too late now - unless we return to BOX 1 again and be sincere and innocent to one another.

It's hurts sometimes, I find it difficult to move on, I'm stuck, I'm fragile - Like an broken ankle where dance is impossible in the lovely studio.

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Some of his words reminds me - DON'T YOU DARE TO FORGET THAT YOU ARE A DANCER.

That day, he was so serious talking bout "WHAT IS DANCE" when I just wanna chat bout different type of dance, with and without mirror.

From his sentence, I saw myself when I was 17, the fellow who was once so serious in dance, where mirror is the correction for mistakes.

When I was 17, I tot mirror was super duple important for a Comtemporary Dancer until 21, I realised that with or without mirror, the most important for a Comtemporary Dancer is FEELING & ENERGY.

Since he was so fierce bout the conversation, I asked him what is his definition of dance. He told me PERFECTION. Somehow I agree (but that doesnt mean he have to talk in a arrogant way!).

I cant share with him my opinion since he was so strong about his definition. This had alr shown that he doesnt wanna listen, thr's no point sharing at the end of the day.

I told him to treat that I din ask before bout places to practise dance. It was a bad conservation with him as a friend that late morning. Sucks!

Sometimes, I just prefer we treat each other as dancer rather than fling. At least I can concentrate on what I always love to do, instead of thinking this and that which I'm sick and tired of it (but I have no idea why I am still thinking bout it now and then)

Fifth December this year, an date to rmb :)

Loose ends doesnt have to be tighten, let it drop with its feeling, end it in its own way, comtemporary.

Images of the day

Took half day leave to attend an interview at Old School Sinema as Event Trainee. Before that, met up with Hajar at Lasalle. After interview, went to take pictures around Mount Sophia, this place never fail to give me feelings for photography despite the hot hot sun.

Peep into their dance studio turn out to be stepping into :)
The carpet is much better than my school, good spacing as well, of course, not forgetting to take PICTURESSSSSSSS :D







Somehow, I still think bout the transition from the time I was in Lasalle to NYP. If I din quit Lasalle, I wouldnt have met him. If I din quit Lasalle, I wouldnt have a chance to be a cometmporary dancer (was in Faculty of Fine Arts). If I din enroll to Lasalle, I wouldnt have been so attach to Mc Nally Road now. If I din enroll into NYP, I maybe leading a full artist life (upside down) and never learn new stuffs beside ARTS :)

Nevertheless, I am still welcome to be a Exhibitor Crew during my free time in Lasalle :)

Lovely Sunset at Mount Sophia, exploration with my big big shade.

Staircase remains to be my favourite place


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Farewell !

my 4th chance appear :)

I'm gonna cherish it.
However, someone is gonna crash it!

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I would love to declare but not at the moment when we both are not sure if we shld get tgt..

I dun care about what the future holds as long as I have my present, my short moment with him is good enough to turn into memories for the future.

On the 25th of October, 2009

I seems to hate waiting lately, for some reason.
I guess, I've been waiting for most of my life (unimportant stuffs).
And went around for those important stuffs.

Perharps, this make my life getting complicated and complicated, but for no reason, I like the life I used to lead.

To date, it's a struggle without my MP 3, hopefully, it'll recover itself soon.

Reality caught me back for a week, despite listening to various radio station.

Dance seems to tell me tt I have the standard to dance better - felt like i was dancing for someone instead for myself - which i dislike sometimes. I rather dance for myself than others, putting myself 1st place and others 2nd.

Bad stuffs happened this afternoon.

Conclusion - I wasted few hours (waiting & going) and in return was no one really care bout what i did, kana hit on the head for no reason! BASTARD do that, cos no one have the right to hit me that harsh! of course i left immediately, only moron stays.

Phone went low batt, no radio, no mp 3, I took a bus home, passing my 1st ex-bf's house, that was my sunday afternoon.

Dial my ex's number but somehow, i cant rmb it and it wasnt in my phonebook....

Naturally, I walked to the dance studio at my community club and sat on the sofa outside for bout an hour, drinking honey bubble tea and eating potato chips, thinking bout the studio at the old CC which was just under the next block.

What came to my mind when i was down this evening was DANCE, though practises are getting tiring every week.

He seems to dissapear for a while and came back this morning. I am adapting to this and let everything goes as it wants, neither waiting nor forcing it anymore.

BUSY

Probably the last sunset I've enjoyed at Marina Bay Platform on 17th Oct.

It seems like my holiday is ending very, very soon. 4days of dance practise - includes 1 full day practise on saturday from 9.30am to 4.30pm, sooner or later, it'll become 5 days of practises. All for the preparations of next year's performance.

Am enjoying this kind of life :)



work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance, work & dance....................

the same routine goes on.

Thursday is the only time where I have sometime for myself at night this week :)

Dying in Macdonald

My result of How will I die in MacDonald .......

Ballet Slipper

Since 2004 when i last wore my ballet slipper .......

headed to costume shop to get a new size, accompanied by aloy followed by ice teh tarik at one of my fav indian cafe & Takashimaya's tent for Jewel Fest 09.

AM SO IN LOVE WITH MY NEW BALLET SLIPPER <3





Dance isnt easy.

To look good on stage isnt easy, practises, rehersals, practises, rehersals.

Practise practise and practise in the right way produce a good and tough dancer. Someone told me, A DANCER NEVER GIVE UP, which encourages me when the going gets tougher.