forgiveness

it's always a blessing
for knowing tt ur love one is still breathing
the heart of his/hers is still beating

disputes and hatred can dissapear one fine day
will everybody have a chance to wait for the day
where total forgiveness will be really "active" ?

i admit i hated him so much
he broke my heart 3 years ago
i was so naive to think tt she's his everything
till tdy, i realised tt they've been few weeks
in fact, they did not even hold hands at all

can u imagine?
i tot things were great between them tt year
to him, it's no big deal @ all, quarrel and ended up the r/s of his in 2005
i guess tt's the year

i deleted him frm my friendster list
including msn
cos i hated him
i mean i 've cont had him in my heart for a year
& after knowing he's attached, i was so upset
@ tt point of time la
i hated him for "hurting" me, thou it's not hurting directly

however.....
one fine nite
i had a nitemare
i dreamt tt my friend told me tt he passed away in a car accident
i witness the shattered glass window of a car
i tried to find his body
i tried to find him, hoping he's alive
i tried to look for his wake
@ least to attend his funeral to send him off his last journey
BUT I JUST CANT FIND HIM
i just cant see neither him nor his body and his wake

i woke up
i was so scared tt i walked into the living room to gave him a call
it rang, but no one answer the call
he's busy, i know & indeed HE IS BUSY
HE IS ALIVE!
@ tt pt, i realised tt i dun really hate him so much
i wanted to, at least, listen to his voice
so tt i can assume tt i've got a super scary nitemare

one nitemare tt's regarding him
appleased my emotion of hatred
isnt tt wonderful?
doing nth and full forgiveness is activated :D

if u wanna know who i'm talking bout
i'm refering to my baby :)

hurhur